What a Year - 2012

2012 marks 2 major winnings for me:

 

1.  Berjaya melangsaikan hutang JPA - wooohooooooo.

This is quite an achievement. To be a much better citizen of Malaysia, I sacrifice current desire for many other things and opt to settle my study loan. Even though I had written an appeal to JPA to convert my loan into scholarship the moment I finished my study, and JPA had diplomatically declined, and I felt a little disappointed, it's finally over baby! You know as what I had shared before, every month JPA would send a love letter to me, sharing verses from Quran and hadith Nabi on the consequent of delinquent in paying back the loan. Also, in worldly manner, it was stated that they would go after my guarantor and so on. It's finally over baby!!!! Thank you to government of Malaysia who had paid for my study loan and allowed me to pay back only 25% out of the hundred thousands worth of the loan. For that I am truly thankful for.

 

2. Berjaya membawa anak2 mengembara ke negara luar - yeeehaaaa.

For the 1st time, we had managed to bring over the whole family to a country which the kids aptly refer to as "negara sejuk". They had always wondered how the life in "negara sejuk" would be like and they finally had a chance to experience it. Mr. X and I also for the 1st time had tried the frenzy booking for Airasia ticket the moment the ad was out to get the best deal. Not bad for staying up till 3 am to get the ticket. We first logged on at 12am and after a few rounds of being directed to the "waiting room" and watching the circle went round and round and round, and after a few "connection lost" thanks to mediocrity of online wire by Celcom, we eventually did it. The overall flight ticket was around RM3k for the whole family, whereas at normal rate, it would reach RM10k. Rezeki, alhamdullillah. 2nd rezeki was getting to stay at a dear friend's house and having the meals cooked for us! How lucky that was! Dah ler rumah free, dapat makan free lagi....syukur sangat....thank you very much to hosts whose names I dare not mention, nanti korang carik dia pulak....well, you can know if you are my friend in my Facebook.

 

There are just so many joyous moments in 2012, and of course, there are also bad moments. Let's just mention the good ones, so that insya Allah, the upcoming years will be much better ones.

 

Oh tahun ni saya tiada bibik. Setelah saya hantar pulang yang terakhir pada Januari lepas, saya cuba hidup tanpa bibik. Penat wooo...saya cuba untuk berfikiran positif setiap kali saya rasa penat. Terutama ketika gosok baju, bila kaki dah lenguh, saya mesti pujuk hati dan kederat saya supaya bertambah kuat. Ketika masak, bahang memasak insya Allah akan memisahkan seorang isteri dari api neraka. Sebab itu ada org kata, kalau makan kat rumah isteri masak, lauk telur goreng pon sedap. Oh kalau itu saya jawab, sebab isteri itu memasak dgn ikhlas, dan sambil masak dia berdoa supaya masakannya dapat mengenyangkan setiap ahli rumah. Dia akan masak dgn penuh kasih sayang. Tiada nilai komersil, hanya nilai kasih sayang. Yang ini kat kedai takde jual. Walau sibuk macam manapon, cubalah memasak di hujung minggu sekurang-kurangnya. Makcik jual sayur dan ikan kat Taman U tu pernah pesan kat saya, katanya apsal ko beli barang sikit sangat? Saya kata sebab saya amat jarang memasak, saya selalu balik malam. Saya hanya boleh masak waktu weekend. Dia kata takpelah dek. Yang penting ko kena masak juga. Jgn sampai tak masak langsung. Oh, betapa pentingnya satu aktiviti seorang isteri yang satu ini.

 

Tahun ini kedua-dua emak dan ayah saya telah menjalani operations yg major juga. Emak dah pon berumur 1940 lahir, so 72 tahun. Abah lahir tahun 1926, so umur dia dah 86 tahun. Sama dgn Dr.M abah saya tu. Doktor kata abah saya dah tak boleh drive, tapi dia nak drive juga. Mana tahan duduk rumah saja. Emak pulak doktor kata dah tak boleh buat kerja berat. Jadi mcm nampak gaya saya kena ambil bibik untuk tolong mereka, tapi emak saya tidak suka. Dia kata dia rimas. Kita tunggu dan lihat mcm mana keadaan tahun 2013 iye.

 

Kerjaya nampaknya semakinlah mencabar. Saya kena selalu update my knowledge, and selalu nak kena bagi motivasi kepada rakan2 dan anak buah. Tahun depan saya rasa lagi mencabar. Tapi saya kena cuba buat dulu, baru saya tahu kemampuan diri kita yg sebenar. Saya rasa saya sudah capai satu tahap di mana, saya mesti cuba. I have got to try and do it. I have to expand my boundary and reach those which I thought was unreachables.

Persepsi manusia berbeza-beza dan kita tidak boleh puaskan hati semua orang. Yang penting, kita usaha dgn ikhlas, bekerja sebagai satu wadah ibadah dan niatkan semuanya kerana Allah. Insya Allah usaha kita akan dipermudahkan oleh-Nya.